Full On Panic Mode

As I signed in to blogger to write this entry, my breath quickened and my heart started racing.  Why?  Because I'm was going to write that my performance is tonight.  No, I'm not on my way to the show, I'm not sitting backstage.  I'm sitting at the dining room table at my employers house...and I'm scared shitless.  This does not bode well for the evening.  Why can't I just get regular jitters?  First performance anxiety is not good!  It's so ridiculous.  I know this dance.  I know this place.  I know these people.  Apparently none of that matters because as I sit here in front of the computer, I am literally freaking out.  My palms are starting to sweat.  What if I suck?   What if I forget the choreo?  What if they boo me?  My rational brain knows that none of these things will happen.  But my totally irrational mind says that all this will take place, and more.  I was going to write all sorts of interesting and fun tidbits about what you'll see tonight and how awesome everything will be, but unfortunately now I'm too nervous to make any sense.  Just know that the show will be AWESOME.    And so now need to go calm myself and practice about 100 trillion more times before the kids wake up...  If you want to see how it all turns out, come on out to Phase 1 tonight and check out me and the other Gurlies!!